Every time I think about blogging I have this internal debate: To blog what is truly on my mind or stick to the society norm of inane, mundane drivel interposed with commentary on politics and current events. Obviously anyone can see what won. Drivel. Asinine. Foolish. Empty words. I have a blog therefore I can.

In all honesty, who really gives a damn what is on anyones mind? In the end it all boils down to shutting off the computer and walking away with our own opinions on any given subject.

So today I'll blog about what is truly on my mind and to many it will be silly, hollow, empty words. So be it.

Last fall my friend Susan came to visit. As I dropped her off at the airport I realized that weekend had been a major turning point in my life. A re-awakening, a rebirth of sorts. A pinnacle of past, present and future which defines who I am, where I am and where I am going. Some would say a true epiphany. Maybe even me.

I've waited four months to write anything about this. Things have not changed, if anything I see people and things with increasing clarity. I can't say what I see is good or gives me peace. Again just understanding.

So happy Easter. He has risen.

So Susan says.

So here I sit looking at the blinking cursor. What to say? My life is boring.

For a quick update on the job. February 14 I started, I walked into a facility to mentor the director who was "having a few problems". She called in sick for 2 days - I got to address "the few problems". Which was major problems. She's gone. Now I'm "acting interim director" and spending long hours trying to clean this facility up. Fast. Being educational and nurturing when it comes to basic patient care is not part of my makeup. My patience wears thin when dealing with bullshit human antics. Ok, I nurtured and educated for 4 weeks - now it's do the job or get out. Sigh. I never quite got that concept of asking people nicely to do their damn job. Just like I never quite got it there are people out there that think they should be asked. Definitely one of us is missing something out of our gene pools.

I know I sound harsh and remember rule #1: I am a bitch. And. I really hope that the day I become indifferent to people laying in their own waste, not being fed, not being clothed and ignored hours on end. God takes me out. Quickly. Without mercy.

So that is my life. Needless to say, I'm not sleeping well. So I spend my "off" hours doing mindless activities (Pogo) and channel surfing for comedy movies.

So other than that I'm healthy, wealthy and wise stupid.

I'm still laughing but the Billy Graham IPod is definitely the product of a unique mind. What next? The Islam IPod with calls to prayer?

Been awhile since I did an update on my life. If time keeps going this fast I should be in my eighties sometime next week. Weird how this time of year the days just meld together into one huge blanket of snow and endless flurries. The only thing that separates time is restless nights and fitful dreams.

I started my new job consulting on February 14 and like all jobs it has it's ups and downs but it's definitely less stressful then my last. What I did forget is the look of distrust and almost contempt when you walk into a facility as a consultant to evaluate their systems and offer "suggestions". It's somewhat akin to telling the woman of the house how to be a better housekeeper. Of course you can walk into some facilities and as your feet stick to the floor and you walk out of your shoes onto the grime it's suddenly become a little more than a nurturing and educational experience - it can become a battle. It's sort of odd and a little humorous to see how some rationalize why they are not following federal regulations and guidelines. Enough of that.

On a good note I'm meeting new people - actually peers for a change rather than employees. So it's been fun accepting and extending invitations to dinner and other events. That has been a very welcome change.

I've been very lucky the last three weeks to be working very close to home for a change. It's been nice giving up that 2-3 hour commute daily. I'm sure those times will come again...but for now, woo hoo...I'm enjoying it.