I really hate the thought of going back to work Monday. Beyond hate, it's really bumming me out. I'm a nurse, I believe I was meant to be a nurse, but the healthcare industry has changed so drastically you can't be a nurse anymore.

Acidman set me off this morning with one of his posts and according to him, and rightly so, he said I barked at him. I did. I apologized for that. Someone who is not in the medical industry can not possibly understand what is going on.

Nurses have left in droves. There is a nursing shortage. It's not about salaries and benefits or nursing would of died off back in the 60's. That has changed over the years...salaries and benefits have improved. The majority of nurses that do stay only because 1) they keep hoping someday they will be able to do their jobs, and 2) they are locked into that salary level.

Many are saying fuck it all, they are the smart ones that realize that #1 is not going to change in our lifetimes. If I hadn't divorced then the ex dying, which drastically altered my future financial outlook (no I didn't ever receive alimony)...I'd be long gone by now. I will be long gone soon. Everything I have focused on in the past year is to simplify my life so I can take a drastic cut in wages. Well, one more to put through college anyway. Six more years? ARGGHH! Life sucks.